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30 April 2008

Feeling Breathless

I woke up at 4a.m. feeling breathless again. Thoughts of school matters kept coming to my mind even though I know I should be at complete rest. What a workaholic I am. Sighz. Well, it's just my sense of responsibility and dedication to teaching. Always to give my best, doing it not for men, but for GOD! Always caring for the children whom I teach...loving them just as God loves me. Just like the song, 'Jesus Loves The Little Children'.

Hence, I decided that I must go to school later to return the remaining worksheets and books to my students for them to prepare for SA1. Otherwise, I cannot rest in peace. In addition, I need to bring my school laptop back in case of urgent school cockpit matters to be done while I am on Medical Leave till 6th May. I love my Futjitsu laptop as it has all the stuff I need... photos, music and various working documents. I am going to bring it home to accompany me during my period of rest and recovery.

Right now, I have applied 'Vicks' on my nose and chest to help me to breathe better. Taking deep breaths, counting to 4 ... breathe in, counting to 4, breathe out. Just like what the paramedic and doctor taught me, take slow deep breaths, not short quick breaths. Otherwise, I will end up hyperventilating again and feel numbness in hands and feet. Aiyoh... I do not want the same thing to happen again. Yesterday was a terrible experience of feeling so numb and cold when I hyperventilated and became breathless due to my severe continuous coughing. Another thing that I must remember is to breathe through my mouth if my nose is blocked. Sighz... but such a way of breathing is so tiring and dries me out. My mouth feels constantly dry and I have to keep drinking. Consequently, I have to frequent the toilet to release. Feeling so dehydrated... despite drinking lots of water.

Well, for the next few days, I will be resting at my new house at Upper Boon Keng in the day time as my niece Keziah comes over to my current house to be cared for by my mother. Otherwise, she will keep coming to me. As I need complete rest and do not want to spread any germs that I may be carrying (bronchitis) to her, the best is to rest in my new house. Thank God my new house is almost ready with all the renovation and furnitures done up. The only things that are not available there is internet connection and CD player.

As the Words of God speak, THERE'S A TIME FOR EVERYTHING. I think this is the time God wants me to rest in him completely, casting all my cares upon HIM. God will carry me through this trial of life. Tough it may be, but I shall fight with the strength of the LORD. Meanwhile, thanks be to the Lord for the 'angels' he sent to protect me in the form of my colleagues, friends and family. Thanks be to the Lord for his mercy and grace. Thanks be to the Lord for the prayers of my Christian colleagues and friends.

Here's a sharing from the BIBLE:
EVERYTHING HAS ITS TIME

ECCLESIASTES 3: 1 - 8

To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:
A time to be born,
And a time to die;
A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted;
A time to kill,
And a time to heal;
A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones,
And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
A time to love,
And a time to hate;
A time of war,
And a time of peace.

4:21 am;

29 April 2008

Down with a Bad Cough...Sick... Time to REST in the LORD JESUS CHRIST

Today was my worst day ever. For the first time in my life, I am so sick. After a whole day at school, I was tired out. I tried to stay for SA1 English Composition 2nd marking. However, after marking only 4 pieces of compo, I was coughing so badly and breathless that I had to tell my colleague, Mastura that I had to leave to see doctor. Thus, I bade farewell to my fellow P2 teachers who were marking and slowly struggled to make my way back to the staffroom to pack and leave.

Upon reaching the staffroom, I coughed so badly that I was breathless and giddy. Almost fainted. Informed my Level Manager, Hafizah about my condition and what to do with my class 2D in my absence. Next, I called out to my dear colleague, Meiling to help me as I started hyper-ventilating as a result of my bad cough that had been on for 3 weeks already. A few other colleagues came to my rescue too. So glad to have such great and caring colleagues. In my midst of hyper-ventilating and crying in pain due to my blocked nose, chest and heart pain, I saw many 'angels'.... my Principal, Mrs Cheong, Vice-principal, Mr Chua, Lay Leng, Karen, Jinhui, Meiling, Isabella, Patricia and even the school servant Auntie Manickam who surrounded me to encourage and comfort me. Thank you, my dear colleagues and friends.

After waiting for a while, the ambulance came and sent me to Accident & Emergency with Karen, Isabella and Lay Leng accompanying me. The paramedic was nice to me and taught me how to relax to take deep breaths. It was tough as I was in great chest pain as a result of continuous coughing. The pain made me cry, huff and puff so badly. It was terrible pain.... that I kept crying, wailing and howl in pain. So embarrassing... but I could not help it. The pain was just horrendous that my whole head spun, my hands and feet went numb and cramped... and breathless with continuous coughs and hyper-ventilating. Scary and frightening experience.

Thank God for the great colleagues I have who accompanied me there and prayed for me. It was wonderful comfort. After my Dad came, my colleagues went back to school to do SA1 compo marking. Life of teachers are as such... ever so hard-working. I rested on the bed in the observation room for a long while before I could breathe better. Following that, the nurse sent me to the doctor for a review before they discharged me to return home to rest.

Final diagnosis by the doctor at CHANGI GENERAL HOSPITAL (CGH): hyperventilation & bronchitis. After getting my medication, I waited for my mother to come and accompany me home.

Now, I am back home resting. I will be on MEDICAL LEAVE till 6th May. Trusting in God to help me to recover. I will be resting at home. The Lord is my SHEPERD, I SHALL NOT BE IN WANT. GOD WILL CARRY ME THROUGH. The daily bread reading for today happens to be PSALMS 23 THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD.

Thanks again to all who have rendered help to me. Love you, my dear all.

For more updates, you can sms me or follow up on my blog entries. I can type and sms, but not talk because of my breathlessness. Till then, see you again.

Time to LET GO, LET GOD, and just REST.

9:08 pm;

28 April 2008

My Lovely 2Diligence Children

Today, my class 2 Diligence cheered me up despite my illness (cough & flu).

They have been obedient and followed rules well. Considerate and lovable today. Well done! Hence, plenty of points added to the groups. YEAH! :D

For LIFESKILLS, I taught them how to study smart for the coming exams.

Plan --> TO DO LIST

Prepare --> Get all the materials needed for revision

Read & Revise --> Go through corrections, especially practice papers

3 Ps + 2 Rs = SUCCESS

I will do my best to teach them. Be guiding them through the corrections aka revision the next few days to prepare them for the coming Semestral Examination 1. It will be their responsibility to LOOK, LISTEN & LEARN carefully.

Dates to remember:

5th May (Monday): Mother Tongue Paper 2

6th May (Tuesday): English Paper 2

7th May (Wednesday): Mathematics

Be praying that my 2Diligence children will give their best in the coming exams. Here's wishing them the BEST!

6:02 pm;

27 April 2008

Comforting and Encouraging BIBLE verses for the weary soul

Here are some BIBLE verses that I hold on dearly as the guiding principles of my life as a Christian. Truly, the Words of GOD are comforting and renews strength and courage for my weary soul. May God guide me through this journey of life and overcome the obstacles and trials ahead of me.

Galatians 5: 22 - 26
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law. And those who are Christ's have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking one another, envying one another.

Galatians 6: 6, 9 - 10
Let him who is taught the word share in all good things with him who teaches.
And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all, especially to those who are of the household of faith.

Colossians 3: 12 - 17, 23-24
Therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, put on tender mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering; bearing with one another, and forgiving one another, if anyone has a complaint against another; even as Christ forgave you, so you also must do. But above all these things, put on love, which is the bond of perfection. And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful.
Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom, teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord.
And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him.

And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance; for you serve the Lord Christ.

1 Thessalonians 5: 12 - 22
And we urge you, brethen, to recognise those who labour among you, and are over you in the Lord and admonish you, and to esteem them very highly in love for their work's sake. Be at peace among yourselves.
Now we exhort you, brethen, warn those who are unruly, comfort the faint-hearted, uphold the weak, be patient with all.
See that no one renders evil for evil to anyone, but always pursue what is good both for yourselves and for all.
Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.
Do not quench the Spirit.
Do not despise prophecies.
Test all things; hold fast what is good.
Abstain from every form of evil.

2 Timothy 1: 13 - 14
Hold fast the pattern of sound words which you have heard from me, in faith and love which are in Christ Jesus. That good thing which was committed to you, keep by the Holy Spirit who dwells in us.

2 Timothy 2: 3, 22 - 26
You therefore must endure hardship as a good soldier of Jesus Christ.

Flee also youthful lusts; but pursue righteousness, faith, love, peace with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.
But avoid foolish and ignorant disputes, knowing that they generate strife.
And a servant of the Lord must not quarrel but be gentle to all, able to teach, patient, in humility correcting those who are in opposition, if God perhaps will grant them repentance, so that they may know the truth, and that they may come to their senses and escape the snare of the devil, having been taken captive by him to do his will.

Hebrews 12: 1 -2
Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him, endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of God.

James 1: 2- 8
My brethen, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience.
But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.
If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.
But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind.
For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.

May God guide me in all my ways, whatever I do. Grant me the peace and joy.

1:34 pm;

20 April 2008

International Friendship Day

Here are some group shots of my 2Diligence pupils on International Friendship. More photos will be posted at a later time when I am free.

Currently, I am still down with a cough and busy with work. Tons of marking to do... and EXAMS are coming soon for the children. Worrying for the children who are still not putting in enough effort in their work.... Praying they will give their best effort in the coming exams. I will just do what I can to prepare them.